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  • Sacred Sorrow: Powerlessness 2


    “Individuation, as a process can be seen at important stages of life and at times of crisis when fate upsets the purpose and expectation of the ego-consciousness.”

    E A Bennett – What Jung Really Said

    It seems an age since I sat here with a sense of dedication and commitment to my blog, and a need to open my mind further to the possibility that somehow others maybe inspired by what I put in here. It has been twelve weeks at least since my fingers tapped out a new creation for the blog . It almost sounds like I’m in a confessional telling my sins to a priest. Go easy on me.

    Since April 2 I have had an insane work schedule, a holiday, a season change in both climate and work, the passing away of a goal, and in orbit around me others have experienced the death of a loved one, hospitalisation, and an overseas move. They all involve surrender, letting go, or what may seem to be our fate.

    Surrender is the other side of powerlessness. When we go beyond the anxiety of having fate cast an ugly hand, or the feeling that life has betrayed us somehow, we enter the realm of surrender, the place where trust envelops us and allows us to acknowledge that while difficult our current experience is actually moving us forward.

    In Greek Mythology Lachesis, Clotho, and Atropus are the Fates, the Moerae, the three sisters who decide the fates of humans, singing of the experiences we had, that we are having, and the things we will have. Lachesis apportions the lots of fate, Clotho spins the thread of fate and lastly Atropus cuts the thread of fate as we move from life through death, the ultimate surrender, and onwards. And the Fates are attributes of our own souls. We know what has gone before, what is ultimately in our future, and we have an inner knowing of where life is carrying us.

    In honouring a relationship with our soul we may be led into experiences that appear to invade our psyches and push us in directions we hadn’t considered. Surrender is giving up the ways of being that don’t serve us anymore and being open to the possibilities it holds for us, receiving the new experiences life offers us around each new corner.

    I acknowledged the passing away of a goal when I noticed coming up against barriers to its fulfilment. The act of surrendering to the release of something I was holding onto allowed a new idea to take its place. This new thought seemed more difficult to bring to fruition and yet it held more promise than the previous one. It fits well with one of my favourite quotes from Neale Donald Walsch – “Live the grandest version of the greatest vision you ever held about Who You Are.” By offering ourselves to this possibility there maybe sadness as we leave behind those ideas we hold about ourselves that have outlived their usefulness.

    Soul Craft coverBill Plotkin in his book SoulCraft tells the story of Lauren, a woman wandering alone in a sandstone canyon during one of his soulcraft intensives. After she’d been walking for an hour unbidden sensations both emotional and physical left her afraid and struggling. She was in an area surrounded by ancient cliff dwellings and could feel a great sadness emanating from them. This induced a profound experience of grieving, and she left the canyon under the shadow of what Bill terms a soul encounter or initiation. From this she gained the belief she was destined to grieve and assist others in connecting with their own deep sorrow. She received a secret name from the canyon and prepared a naming ceremony in the following three months. After this she went on to drag her feet for a few months until an “accident”, a fall from a horse, forced her into accepting this path that had been chosen by her soul.

    Through committment to the tug of soul she now facilitates grieving processes through word of mouth.

    Surrender means acceptance of what the present moment holds, of what fate has allotted us right now whatever that may be. In saying that we hold the power to apply meaning and emotion to this current experience. We have choice. We are the architects of our own fate. All we need to do is take up our paddle and move out into the current of our life, honouring both the times when we have a gentle course and also when we enter the rapids and life throws us around, shaking us up and making us more acutely aware and focused on our path. There is power in powerlessness if we allow ourselves to be directed by our hearts and souls, allowing a life that engages the mysteries of existence.


    Soulcraft: Crossing into the Mysteries of Nature and Psyche Bill Plotkin. New World Library 2003

    Animas Valley Institute

  • Working with Aspects of the Soul: Serenity

    I’ve been sleeping well. As I consider the struggles of my past – the ones that have kept insomnia barking at my door – mainly when relationships didn’t appear to be working any more, this current struggle is not keeping me up at night worried out of my head. Seems like a good thing.

    It has certainly been keeping a knot of something in my stomach at different times of the day. Fear probably, as I make this transition from one reality to another. I really had to remind myself often of yesterday’s intention. Serenity. I needed to breathe that into my awareness.

    And yet in the middle of it all there are gifts. Seeing and listening to others at peace with themselves was a gift to me while that knot seemed to be tightening. Sitting there under the Chinese Silk tree. If ever there was a tree helpful in evoking serenity that’s the one. It’s beautiful.

    There was an interesting moment when I looked for my previous post on another computer and it wasn’t there. I was kicking myself that maybe I’d mistakenly deleted it and was going over what I’d written in my mind and hoping I could get it all back. I asked myself in that moment what serenity was all about and the answer was seeing everything as perfect. I thought that having an empty space under the heading was perfect detachment. And was imagining fielding a couple of comments. When I got home and logged on to my computer there it was as if it had never disappeared. It was perfect.

    Coming home and clearing email. Seeing one from Joe Vitale in which he was offering a free download to his subscribers. I opened the file and found a bonus pdf which turned out to be an e-book version of what he believed to be one of the most powerful books on manifestation written . It’s called Attaining Your Desires By Letting Your Subconscious Mind Work for You by GENEVIEVE BEHREND. If you’re unable to get a copy from him you can get one at scribd.com.

    I understand the process of manifestation and yet here was a text that thoroughly elucidated what to do when it seemed that whatever you were endeavouring to manifest wasn’t working. Whether you were struggling with disappointment, fear, sensitivity or other manner of upset most of the remedies outlined consisted of breathing, walking, affirmation.

    All methods for coming back to serenity.

    I found myself moved to work on my vision board and become clearer on what I really wanted my life to be about. I look forward to it unfolding.