….work not for joy, but towards it; not for reward, but from an inner disposition to serve; not for gratitude but from the urge that comes from having seen the vision and realization of the part you have to play in bringing the vision down to earth.
Alice A. Bailey The Soul The Quality of Life
I’d love to tell you the day was full of complete joy and happiness. That just wasn’t the case. It is now Sunday night and it was Friday morning when I posted last. There was a sense of satisfaction when I completed that. And the process was enjoyable yet tinged with a time challenge I had an appointment at 9am. Eventually got there at 9.15.
I met the friend with whom I underwent the rite of VisionQuest – a 96 hour meditation and fast in nature. She had received some photos from one of the staff who had supported our Quest and with whom she had since become friends. I felt the happiness of reliving fond memories. It is up there as one of the highlights of my life. I am still coping with the challenge of having no regular income and I felt relief when she invited me to do a little house painting for which she’d pay me. I feel privileged to have friends and family supporting this process at the moment which I know is only temporary.
We also discussed the program we’ve been working on together and it inched it’s way forward as we made some decisions to work with what we have rather than waiting til it seems absolutely perfect. You’ll be sure to hear how it unfolds over he next couple of weeks.
Following that I had another meeting scheduled and the person was running a little behind. What could have become a frustrating situation was an opportunity to remind myself of the day’s intention and flow with it. I spent the time sitting under a tree with a book on awareness and doing the exercises outlined therein. Very illuminating. And finding myself being at peace with what is. More of what could have been frustration arrived as we were meeting with others arriving. More opportunity opening up as the little knowledge I have regarding the internet is in fact exponentially more than others have understanding of and so I offered to serve.
Following that I headed out to a family gathering. Every couple of years the family comes home – well the ones that live outside of Christchurch anyway. My parents, my sister and brother and I don’t have far to travel. I have a brother in Australia with his family and another living in the North Island. When we gather we have the best time. I can’t say we’re totally dynamic free but we don’t get caught up in the stickiness of some family dynamics and this allows us to just be together and have an awesome time. Most of the grandchildren were there and that adds to the carnival atmosphere as well. I guess that’s part of the ultimate vision to know that we here to enjoy Planet Earth and while on the surface there wasn’t a facade of absolute ecstasy throughout the day there was that deep sense of contentment of being part of a diverse and wonderful family. Thank you, thank you, thank you .